Football Sucks

I am so sorry to tell you this…BUT there will be some days where football sucks, it will not only just suck. It will ruin your day, it will ruin your night, it will make you doubt yourself, it may make you do none of these things, it may make you want to prove the naysayers wrong, it could do a lot of things BUT from my experience, there will be days where football is just going to SUCK and there is nothing really good to say about it. I understand the feeling too well and empathise with you. I can’t always tell you that it will be ok, because it won’t BUT I will give you hope. That it will only take one game, one game for everything to click for you to feel like you love the game again. And you do love the game. You just don’t like everything that comes with it.

Live with it, use it to be better. There will be a team for you, there will be, you just need to TRUST that with hard work you will get better and continue getting better.

On those days especially, I want you to be good to yourself (I know that it is easier said than done). I want you to really take in this blog post and UNDERSTAND that there are thousands of people out there who would LOVE to be you. However, that thinking does give me perspective but not enough these days. What keeps me going is being kind to myself. I watch my game, I take in what I can from feedback (I do not let people, even coaches perspectives drown my inner soul), I focus on what I did, what I can do better and I MOVE the hell on.

I forgive myself. Yes, that is right, I forgive myself for being so mean and having these expectations on myself. I move on and realise that I am my investment, and I will continue working on my craft. It will get better. It will get better.

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Follow Your Passion

Aimee Phillips BlogI’ve learnt a lot this year, maybe 6 years of learning in the period of 1 year…I have been in situations that no person should ever be in and I hope to God that you are not…I have kept a lot to myself and battled on, I have sacrificed maybe nearly every part of myself for the game but do not regret it at all, I have become such a better player because of it and so many more things that have happened but this post is derailing from the main purpose so I will stop… but the main thing that I have learnt is… That I will never again do anything that does not align with my spirit, who I am and what my spirit wants to make it whole because you can’t betray your soul, you can but the things that make you sing and shine from the inside out cannot hide or be suppressed and it is a losing battle. Have you ever fought your soul? Well call me strange but I fight it now. It is one of the craziest feelings to know that your purpose is more than you think or can imagine. That there is MORE for you in this massive big world although you don’t feel ready or want it.

So I really am going to continue to follow my passion, I love football very much and it is still my passion but there is a passion that is even stronger that has been bursting to be let out for sometime and that is my passion to start my own English Language Business. To be to help others and to be one of the leading academics in my field so then I can help and advise and give love, motivation to those who need my help and how I think.

This journey of my life is and has been the craziest 27 years. My dad said to me the other day. Aimee, you have to settle eventually. Maybe it is true but maybe it is not or maybe some people are meant to be sent on this earth to live lives that aren’t “settling” or looked as the normal. All I know is that I have to let my spirit be happy. Truly happy. Like jumping out of this world happy and let it live the way it was meant to live on this planet.

Love you all,

Aimee

Much to Life

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There is so much more to life.

Being a footballer at a high level comes with its pros and cons and some of the best memories and worst memories of my life to date but I have really enjoyed the journey and what it has taught me.

A high level equals high expectations and if you cannot deal with the environment you will not survive so you must be strong. HOWEVER.

I have taken a lot of time to think about this and experience these feelings and quite bluntly I will let you know.

THAT THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN…someone yelling at you because your one touch was bad. That your pass was not strong enough, that you let someone pass you. Obviously you don’t give up and you give it your soul to make sure it doesn’t happen but I tell you now. THERE IS SO MUCH MORE TO LIFE than accepting that that is your life.

Love football, love the game no matter what it has done to me and my passion keeps me playing. However, I need you to know that I understand if you don’t enjoy it sometimes but dont hate the game. It is not the game that you hate. Do not BLAME football for this.

So I have had about 4 interviews this week to do some online English teaching for companies this week. What an amazing experience and wow, the world continues to fascinate me.

Will be home with my family soon. I love you all.

Aimee

Experience

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Everywhere you go. You learn different things. You meet different people, you experience joy, you experience hardship. You EXPERIENCE.

10 years ago, I was too scared to leave home and my perspective on life was so small. I worried about things that didn’t really matter, I treated those who had experiences to share like I knew the world, which I didn’t, I was a child and in some ways I still am but most of all I was afraid and I still am. I have much more to learn, I have much more to share, I hopefully have much more to experience and I want to one day conquer my inner fear.

A year ago I was too scared to leave to Germany at BV Cloppenburg, I was afraid to leave everything that I knew and the safety of my life and for good reason. I had money, I had someone I loved, I had my family.

It is not ideal to do what I am doing right now, probably would make someone very unwell haha. However, like I told you in the past it has made me grow up. Grow up maybe 6 years in the period of a year. Filled me with compassion, love, empathy, opportunity not to mention the hardships that I have outlined.

I say all these words lightly but I cant show you what these things look like or how they truly feel. I can only show you as much as I can. It is easy to say that everything is easy, moving countries, changing your environment until it is you. Until it is you but it gets easier to make change and change.

Change is integral to my life now. My dad would always say to me “Aimee a rolling stone never gains moss”. He is right BUT that rolling stone is turning into a pretty big boulder. Soon I will be home with my family, soon I will be home with my friends. Not until I try to see the positive of everyday God has given me. Thanks for being my way to share my journey. I am very excited about my future and this present moment. Its life.

Here is picture of me thinking too much playing football. I’m learning to enjoy the game more even with the pressure of it. Self-made I may add.
Enjoy!

Love you all,

Aimee